John (can't seem to complete anything...)

I need

Looking into these dark pools i wonder what is this that we long for....

Disturbing this feeling of being incomplete..... The easy discomfort over the unknown future....

John was never one of those people who was interested in these discussions... the trivial nature of it all he could never understand them.... never seems to understand the obsession that people had in fear love jealousy these were emotions that was beyond his understanding.... these emotions were not required for existence or for survival...
In fact by the evidence that he has come across his life they make life much harder than it need to be....


Thinking this he was walking down the street with cars zipping by him at 120 kmh .... he doesn’t travel by vehicle.... his parents think this has something to do with the his motion sickness.... but it has nothing to do with that... urge to jump out of a moving vehicle is uncontrollable.... his parents always believed that he tries to climb out of a vehicle so that he can puke or.. get some air so that he doesn’t puke... its not that he is suicidal by nature or depressed as by now you should have figured it out he is not emotional in anyway to be depressed by anything as such... this is the only irrational or impulsive act that he does.. He hasn’t figured the reason behind this yet... but this will be revealed in due course he is sure of that... the feeling is almost romantic... like the touch of a man soft and tender right behind his ear...

It takes hold of him... it beats him on the wall... rolls on the ground..... Feels the world exploding inside him...