Knowing this

Saw a pigeon the other day that had committed suicide.
Knowing this...

After the accident had taken place he was never the same... it wasn't the wound that bothered him so much... rather the pretense that everything is good and right in this world that irritated him.
Its as if everything before the accident didn't exists and that he was alive is the only truth. Part of him felt like something momentous had just happened, and from here on there will be nothing that can stop him from achieving anything that he wanted.
As by now its clear that he was always waiting for something miraculous to happen to him to save him from his plight. Quite common one would say..
But i am digressing....
It was the pretense that his family was portraying that irritated him. Not a very loving family is what he would have said, they felt that he was quite the disappointment
well as most families they had unrealistic expectations from an average boy. he lived up to his capability which obviously was much lower that their expectations.
Not a very easy going person and didn't have any attributes which could be used to make up for lets say 'Lack of Ambition' as his family put it quite often.
He could never understand their inability to see his limits. he was quite astounded to realise one day that his family actually believed that he was consciously trying not to succeed
he was so shocked that he had to ponder on this for three days before he gave a reply to his parents for the accusation.
He said "I am not surprised i turned out this way" ( Not a very bright answer after 3 days you can understand now why the parents were so worried )

Anyway the victim of the accident is not the protagonist of this story.

Its the pigeon that died.