Being trying really hard.. that's a lie i hate being in this situation... the fucker is staring at me.. so like i was saying earlier.. been feeling inefficient again.. been like this for a long time now.. where does one go from here. And its cold when i think about how different things could have been. if only i had made smarter decisions.. instead of .. like a kid jumping from one idea to another.. been meaning to set things right for a long time didn't think it would be this way.. been jumping at my own shadows lately.. Blur.. speeding away wondering where i am going..
A miracle i tell u.. whats a miracle u wonder well none of your business.. rave rant.. yeas rant.. don't fake it anymore.. all the misery in the world the lazy life i live in.. all is meant to evolve. sore as ever don't know what to do. so go way from me. wondering what driving this world around..
Fulfilment of the motherhood dream.. why of all things should it be assumed that the motherhood freak dream is what all aim for.. that its the only important thing to anyone..
there are people on this world who would rather spend time with the one they love and learn to love with them. There are people who are never ready to take responsibility of taking care of another individual while giving up ones freedom to remain a kid..
To talk about other things.. the other day i had seen a dead body on the road.. fascinated by the blank stare.. didn't feel anything as such.. it didn't move me in anyway particular way it didn't mean anything..
the suffocating feeling that i get in every flight.. the feeling of being one with the people i rather not have anything to do with.. such intimacy... snoring and sleeping.. burping ad farting..i hate the word farting... i feel disgusting every time i hear it. why is that i wonder.. for its a natural process.. there are sometimes i don't have an issue and is easy to ignore.. but why is it so hard some other times.. i am on a permanent spell check...
random..
Random thought of a person who has nothing to obsess about.
On my way back let see how things are so far so good..
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